We Write Our Own Destiny

Music Survey

2007-09-07T19:45:08Z

List 10 musical artists you like, in no specific order! (Do this before reading the questions below.)

1) Backstreet Boys
2) Brian Littrell
3) Tim McGraw
4) Faith Hill
5) Nick Carter
6) Journey
7) Martina McBride
8) Reba McEntire
9) Carrie Underwood
10) Aaron Carter

-What was the first song you ever heard by 6?
Faithfully or Open Arms... I can't remember

-What is your favorite song of 8?
Does He Love You

-What kind of impact has 1 left on your life?
Oh God... They have had a huge impact on my life. They've brought people into my life that I'm thankful for every day, they have gotten me through some really bad times, and they always make me happy. Just seeing or hearing them brightens a day.

-What do u think of 2?
He is an angel on earth to me. Words cannot even begin to describe him.

-What is your favorite song of 5?
Do I Have To Cry For You

-How many times have you seen 4 live?
sadly I haven't

-What is your favorite song by 9?
Jesus Take The Wheel

-What is your favorite song by 7?
Broken Wing

-Is there any song by 3 that makes you sad?
Don't Take The Girl

-When did you first get into 9?
When I heard her song Jesus Take The Wheel.

-How did you get into 3?
When I first heard his song Don't Take The Girl

-What is your favorite song by 6?
Faithfully

-How many times have you seen 1 live?
Five

-Is there a song by 2 that makes you sad?
Gone Without Good-bye

-What is your favorite song of 3?
Don't Take The Girl

-How did you become a fan of 10?
by listening to his brother

This Summer

2007-09-05T18:06:28Z

1. Drank alcohol? numerous times
2. Cried? numerous times
3. Laughed? not as often as I would've liked
4. Been on a vacation to a different state? I wish
5. Been on a vacation to a different country? I wish
7. Been to an island? I wish
8. Done drugs? only legal ones
9. Smoked? nope
10. Snuck out? I don't need to... I come and go as I please
11. Had a sleepover? if you count Daddy visiting... yup
12. Stayed up all night? almost
13. Slept in someone elses bed? yup
14. Went pee in a pool? gross... no...
15. Went skinny dipping? nope
16. Been on the computer a lot? almost every day
17. Played video games? nope
18. Listened to an ipod/mp3 player? nope
19. Been on over 30 car rides? well, I ride in the car every day, so...
20. Been grounded? LOL I would have to ground myself
21. Been to a party? yup
22. Regret something? always
23. Been dumped? nope
24. Done anything new? not that I can think of
25. Done anything against the law? not to my knowledge
26. Been camping? I don't camp
27. Got in a fight? not really
29. Stayed at a hotel? nope
30. Talked on the phone all night? nope
31. Went shopping? out of necessity
34. Asked someone out? nope
35. Got in a car with a stranger? I haven't completely lost my mind
36. Lost someone close? nope
37. Had someone sleep in your bed? just the usual suspects
38. Been to a movie? yup
39. Been to a club? nope
40. Slept in? several times
41. Got tanner? yup
42. Watched TV for more than 5 hours? 'fraid so
43. Went further than kissing? nope
45. Met someone new? yup
46. Did homework? I don't have that anymore
47. Learned something new? yup
48. Driven? yup
49. Eaten at IN-N-OUT? never have
50. Went surfing? I've never surfed
51. Went dancing? nope
52. Been to a concert? nope
53. Quoted a movie? yup
54. Played with fire? yup
55. Made new friends? yup

What friend(s) were you with the most?
Mom

Where have you been the most?
work

What is the best day?
this past Sunday... Getting my baby girl

What is your favorite song this summer?
"Big Girls Don't Cry"

What is your favorite movie this summer?
Oceans 13

was this the best summer so far?
not even close

Are you looking forward to school starting?
yes, because kids aren't running wild

A Test

2007-08-31T20:33:46Z

The past two weeks seem to have been a test of my nerves and patience. I'm not real sure I'm passing. Grace is back today, and Mark isn't here, so she is still producing. Needless to say, I don't have a good feeling about that. And my solace... having a long weekend and enjoying the pool... seems to be going to pot since it's supposed to rain all weekend. Oh well, at least I don't have to work.

There's not much else going on. There's some stuff brewing on the love front, but I'm really not sure what it is, so I don't want to talk about it right now. I'm still feeling rather shakey about it all.

Yeah... I need to go home now.

What Tarot Card Are You?

2007-08-31T18:34:21Z

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

You'd Think

2007-08-30T18:43:35Z

This week you'd think I'd fallen off the face of the earth. In all actuality, I've been running around like a chicken with my head cut off. I can't even remember what I last updated you on. I think it was Friday afternoon, after getting the estimate on my car, so I'll start there.

The weekend was relatively quiet. I lounged around, cooked one evening, read the pile of magazines that were piling up... That's about it. However, Jeanette, Mom's next door neighbor, got a new puppy. Well, it's not really a puppy, it's a year old. Anyone want to take a guess as to what she got? I'll give you a hint... it made me pout. *nods* She has a little chihuahua named Lucy. Lucy is the sweetest thing. Mom and I were visiting Jeanette on Saturday, and Lucy made herself at home on my chest and took a nice little nap. Jeanette swore I was going to try leaving with her. LOL It's just made me want a puppy all the more.

This week has been crazy on the work front, hence the lack in updates. A director from our sister station on Columbus, Ohio is down here. I've been giving him a basic training session on Ignite. they'll be getting the system next month. He's a nice enough guy, but extremely hyper, and he doesn't shut up. Right now I'm enjoying some quiet time while he's at lunch. I got graphics done in record time, so that's why I've got a few minutes to pop in here. :o) Anyway, he leaves sometime tomorrow, which I'm looking forward to. I'll be able to get back to normal here... somewhat. There are talks of me going up to Columbus to help them out at some point. Poo, maybe you could drive down and stay with me if that's the case. :oP The company will be paying for my hotel room, so you can just crash with me. I'll keep you updated.

Not a lot else is going on. I'm still waiting for the insurance company to complete its "investigation" of the accident, so my car is still damaged. I called on Tuesday to check on things. They told me that they're hoping by the end of this week I'll be able to set up something. That's tomorrow, which is a week after they received the estimate. If I haven't heard anything by Monday, they're hearing from me again. Jeanette thinks I need to get a lawyer. I don't think it's to that point, but if they push too long, I'll threaten to, even if I don't.

Oh... and as far as the producer from hell? I'm pretty sure she will be gone soon. She's called out yesterday and today, but I've got a feeling when she does come in she'll be told to leave.

Anyway, there's my life... Crazy as ever. I'm looking forward to a long weekend, since I've once more gotten out of working the MDA telethon. YAY! Can we say, "Pool!"? LOL

Hanging By A Thread

2007-08-23T16:15:54Z

This week has been busy and is following a busy weekend. Friday night was our farewell party to Keith. Then Saturday was bowling with Keith and a few others for a birthday party. After the party, he hit the road for Dallas. It was sad to see him go. Right now it still doesn't seem real that he's gone, but I know that he is.

Work Monday and Tuesday were jammed packed. I've stayed busy pretty much every moment. There've been spots of downtime, but not much. However, Grace hasn't been producing, so that has helped a great deal. Yesterday things took a turn, though.

I was heading for work. Actually, I hadn't even made it out of the parking lot at the apartment, and a taxi backed out of a space into the side of my car. I'm okay, and the car will be. The two passenger doors are probably going to have to be replaced, but the taxi driver is at fault and his insurance is taking care of it. The incident just really shook me up. It brought back a lot of memories of the wreck Mom and I were in a few years ago. I'm still a little shakey and driving to work this morning wasn't a pleasant experience. I'm here, though.

Anyway, that's about it. I'll leave you with a few pictures of my baby. :o( Hopefuly she'll be fixed soon.

One Life

2007-08-15T19:46:22Z

I opened up LJ today to update and saw that I haven't updated in a week. That makes sense considering I was completely away from the computer until yesterday. In my mind I'd planned on updating sooner than this, though.

The weekend was an enjoyable one with Daddy and Aunt Nita in town. They arrived around 4:00 on Thursday and came down to the station with Mom to watch me direct the 5:00 newscast. We spent the evening in. Mom made burgers, I made an oriental salad, and we played Monopoly until after 2:00 in the morning. LOL Friday started with breakfast and a few hours in the pool. When we back to our apartments Daddy and Aunt Nita got ready to go down to an antique store. While they were gone, I showered and made dinner for everyone. It was another evening in with us playing Scattagories and Yatzee while listening to the Falcons/Jets game. (Jets Won!) It was early Saturday morning before we parted ways and headed to bed. It was shopping day Saturday. We had breakfast and then headed to the Riverfront Antique Mall and Flea Market over in North Augusta. The place is MASSIVE! Daddy got me four Danielle Steel books. All of them were hardback and in great condition. The total? Fifteen dollars... less than half the cover price of one book. :o) I also got a cute Eeyore glass and a cross-stitch to do, both of which were one dollar. Daddy bought himself several cat figurines and Mom some handpainted wine goblets. I think everything together cost a little over forty dollars... not bad considering what all he bought. After an afternoon of shopping, we went to dinner at Logan's followed by dessert at Bruster's. (Fresh Blackberry Ice Cream... YUM!)It was another night of games, that time Scrabble. For some reason I felt like crap on Sunday, but it was a rather quiet day. Daddy and Aunt Nita did some more shopping. Notice a trend? Mom made dinner, and then we played Domino's for awhile.

Daddy and Aunt Nita left Monday morning. The rest of the day I didn't do a whole lot. I went back to bed after they left. When I finally got up, Mom and I sat around watching the soaps before I went to take a shower. It was while I was washing my hair that I decided it REALLY needed cut. It had way too many split ends. So I went to get it cut. The length of my hair isn't greatly different. It's a little shorter, maybe a couple of inches. She added some layers to it, though. I'll tell you, it feels a whole lot lighter!

The work week so far, granted it's only been two days, has gone relatively well. After a HUGE blow up with Grace last week, where my show went to hell, she's being given until tomorrow to get her act together or she's out of a job. She did better yesterday. Today the show is looking a little iffy. We'll see if she pulls it together or not. The bad thing is, I won't know until I go to air and find out that she's messed stuff up.

I'm pretty sure that's about it for now. I took some adorable pictures of TJ this weekend that I need to download. Once I do, I'll share them. :o) He was "playing" Monopoly with us. LOL

Hell

2007-08-08T02:49:09Z

Honestly... Lets talk about this. I like heat. I've wanted to live in the south for a long time because the thoughts of a year-round summer made me happy, but this is just flat out ridiculous. The weather down here right now isn't hot. This is hell! Yesterday the temperature peaked at 101 with the heat index some ungodly number above that. Today... Today we broke the record from 18-something or other and hit 104 with the heat index making it appear to be 114. Hello! That is just ridiculous. I left for work this morning a little before ten o'clock, and it was already in the 90's. If you even think of doing something outside you break out in a sweat. I sat outside long enough yesterday evening to pot a couple of plants, and I was dripping within five minutes.

In other news, there really isn't much news. My producer actually did better today. She's still driving me crazy and is still forgetting things that I've been telling her about since day one, but... It was better, for what it's worth. On the home front, I continue getting ready for Daddy and Aunt Nita to arrive on Thursday. This evening I cleaned my apartment, so that's all good. Tomorrow night I'm going to work on prepping stuff for the meals I'm making. Otherwise I'm in pretty good shape. We really don't have any plans for this weekend. As of right now the talk seems to be leading us to the pool. I won't complain. A weekend of lounging around and getting some sun works for me.

The story that I talked about not knowing how to end is nearing completion. It seems to be one of those never ending chapters now that I actually started writing it. I never intended for it to keep going like this, but... Oh well. I'm hoping to finish it tomorrow and post it. I've got some ideas for other stories I'm working on, which I would like to write. The problem is, my muse keeps running out to play basketball, so the only time he is working for me is when he's benched. It's creating a slight problem. Hopefully his game will be over soon, and he'll come back to me full time.

Facing The Great...

2007-08-06T20:34:09Z

Well, I can't say that it's the unknown, because I know what I'm going to face. I'm facing another day in which my producer ignores all of the help and advice given to her, which means my show will be hell to direct. I guess if I can't count on things being done correctly, I can count on having to clean up a mess.

The weekend was pretty nice. It was quiet. Friday evening Mom and I went to TGIFriday's for dinner. We decided to skip grocery shopping for the evening. I was just flat out exhausted and didn't feel like going. So, Saturday we headed to the pool in the morning for a few hours. After a nice swim, I took a nap before showering so that we could go to the store. That is ALWAYS an adventure. After spending WAY too much money, everything is bought for Daddy and Aunt Nita's visit. Trailing into Sunday, things continued to stay quiet. I watched the Nora Roberts movie marathon on Lifetime and ended up really pissed off at how much the changed Montana Sky from the book. Oh well... I ended up in bed earlier than usual last night, just as I had every night this weekend. My butt was just dragging. Apparently I needed sleep.

I've got a nice little to do list for this week in preparing for company. I'd like to do a lot of the chopping and all for the meals that I'm going to cook so that I don't have to do them on the actual day. It'll save time. Overall, I really don't have much cleaning to do. Just some dusting and vacuuming. That's a plus. :o)

For now I need to go and double check my show AGAIN to see what else is screwed up. Later!

Working For The Weekend

2007-08-03T19:54:52Z

I'm tired, my head hurts, my hands are killing me, and I just want to go home. That shouldn't be too much to ask. At least I wouldn't think it would be. This has been a long week, and I'm just ready for it to be over.

My new producer started actually producing this week. That's been... interesting... to say the least. Right now she is worrying too much about some things and not enough about other things that REALLY matter. She also doesn't listen when you try explaining things to her. It's making work as fun as ever.

Also this week, Keith announced that he has taken a job in Dallas. He'll be leaving August 17. Well, that's his last day at work. The news was a shock. He told me before it was formally announced because he didn't want me hearing from an email or anything. The news upset me more than I was expecting, although it didn't fully hit until I got home and told Mom.

My hands and wrists have been bothering me this week, to the point that the pains are shooting up into my shoulders. I know that it's the carpal tunnel and it's from how much I've been working on computers. The other night I took a pain pill to try to help. It didn't even touch the pain. Needless to say, it wasn't real easy to sleep that night. I couldn't find a comfortable way to place my arms.

There's really not much else going on. I've got about 3/4 of a chapter written that I need to finish. I also need to dust my apartment and all so that it can be ready for Daddy and Aunt Nita to arrive on Thursday. I'd like to get most of the cleaning, which really isn't much, done this weekend so that Wednesday night it's just a matter of vacuuming and making tea and all. Tonight Mom and I are doing the grocery shopping for it all.

So yeah... that's about it. It's Friday and today didn't arrive soon enough.

I'm Here... I'm Kickin'

2007-07-29T20:26:34Z

It's been a quiet weekend, and I've quite enjoyed it. Friday night I didn't do anything. I got home from work, had dinner, napped, watched a little TV, and then went back to my place and read until the wee hours of the morning before going to bed. Yesterday was pretty much more of the same. I crawled out of bed around noon, had lunch with Mom, took a shower, read some of my book, took a nap... That was followed by coming down to Mom's, watching Princess Diaries 2, and eating dinner. It was a little after 11:00 when I went back to my apartment and sat up reading until 4:30 this morning.

I slept like shit last night, although I'm not sure why. I should've been tired, but I wasn't. In all honesty, I could've sat up reading even longer, but I forced myself into bed. This afternoon I finished my book and was quite pleased. It was a Nora Roberts book. So now I need to find what my next book is going to be. Lord knows I have plenty to choose from.

Right now I'm debating whether I'm going to try to work on the chapter I was writing or if I'm going to go upstairs, put some laundry in, find the comforter set that I'm loaning to Mom, and take a shower. I have a feeling that the latter is going to win. I do plan on writing some today, though. I've got a bunch of online reading I need to do as well of chapters people have written. I may end up printing them off tomorrow so that I can read them of an evening when I'm curled up and comfy, instead of at a computer. :oP

Tis all... No real point in this post. I just thought I'd drop by. :oP

Is There A Full Moon?

2007-07-27T17:53:58Z

Anyone that knows me well knows that reptiles freak me out. Lizards, frogs, snakes... My sister gets a kick out of me running and screaming like a girl when I see a frog or one of those little lizards at the beach, as seen here...

I was freaking out while taking the pictures of that little thing for my sister. Now, with that being said, our noon show was quite interesting today. We had people here from the Riverbanks Zoo in Columbia, South Carolina for the noon show interview. They, of course, brought animals with them. When I was told that I was thinking something cute and furry, right? WRONG!!! They brought one of these...

one of these...

and several of these...

No, your eyes are not deceiving you. That's a bearded dragon, a boa, and madagascar hissing cockroaches. *shivers thinking about it* Now... You want the shocking part of this? You ready? LOL I petted the lizard and the snake. You would've been quite proud of me. She tried to get me to hold the snake, but that wasn't going to happen in this lifetime! But yeah, I DID pet them, so that's something. LOL I told them next time I want something cute and furry. :oP

I'm more than ready to go home right now. Last night I got sucked into my book and went to bed later than I should've. Whoops! I'm just ready for the weekend. I want to enjoy the sun and pool tomorrow. I want to read. I want to write. Just a few more hours to go.

The factor that Jaime got voted off of SYTYCD last night didn't surprise me. I had a feeling she was going to go. Actually, I called all four that were in the bottom. Now, Kameron getting the boot kinda surprised me. I didn't quite see that one coming. The partners being divided up, though, goes to show what was keeping some out of the bottom while what was putting others in. Like obviously Lacey and Kameron were staying out of the bottom each week because of Lacey while Lauren and Neil were in the bottom because of Lauren. And I think Danny and Anya had been in the bottom because of Anya. So yeah... this is where it gets interesting. Sara is still my favorite female. And I think I'm divided between Neil and Pasha as my favorite guys, although Danny was sexy as hell doing the Samba. :oP

Here, There, and Everywhere

2007-07-26T18:33:31Z

I'm in an insanely good mood today. There's no real reason for it. I'm just rather chipper today. It's odd because I sleep worth shit last night. Most of the night I was tossing and turning, and I kept getting hot. However, I DID have a dream about Backstreet's CD being released. LOL It was kinda weird. Each of the guys were doing CD signings on the release day in their respective cities. So Brian was in Atlanta and, of course, I went. I was the very first in line. The thing was, the guy in my dream didn't look like Brian. It was him, but... I dunno. He lad long hair and was taller. Yeah... odd.

Work has been relatively quiet today. I've accomplished a lot. All of my work is actually done right now, which is why I'm updating this. Although, I really don't have much to say right now. My mind is rather bouncy right now, and it goes from one thing to another rather quickly.

I'm greatly looking forward to the weekend. The pool is finally open again after some people snuck in and vandalized it. So, I'm hoping to get to go down to the pool this weekend. My tan is fading and could use some work. Otherwise, I just want to chill out, read, and maybe write some. I've got the final chapter of one of my stories that needs written. The problem is, I can't decide HOW it is going to end. LOL I've got three possible endings in mind, and I just don't know which way to go with it. What I might do is just open up the page and see what comes out. *shrugs* I'd really like to finish it.

Oh, and on SYTYCD... I think Sara is officially my favorite. I'm not sure what it is with her. When the season first started, I didn't think she would be, but I've come to enjoy her. The guys I'm still very much torn over, but I like Sara.

Hell Yeah!

2007-07-25T18:30:08Z

Backstreet Boys Plot Comeback With October CD

July 25, 2007, 10:25 AM ET
Jonathan Cohen, N.Y.

After an extended break and the loss of original member Kevin Richardson, the Backstreet Boys will return Oct. 30 with their next, as-yet-untitled studio album for Jive Records. The first single, the piano-heavy rock ballad "Inconsolable," will hit U.S. radio outlets Aug. 27.

Richardson, who exited in June 2006, was not replaced in Backstreet Boys, which also features Brian Littrell, Howie Dorough and AJ McLean. The group is celebrating its 10th anniversary on Jive this year.

The new album is the follow-up to 2005's "Never Gone," which debuted at No. 3 on The Billboard 200 and has sold 747,000 copies in the United States, according to Nielsen SoundScan. Among the collaborators are producers Rob Weiss and Dan Muckula.

While taking time away from Backstreet Boys, Littrell found success in the Christian music world with the 2006 album "Welcome Home" (Reunion). The project reached No. 3 on Billboard's Top Christian Albums chart.

Shall we all note that they forgot Nicky. LOL Whoops!

OH!

2007-07-24T19:21:39Z

I remembered something I was going to post about. My raise has kicked in! It's not huge, not that I expected it to be, but, hey... It's something. Every little bit counts!

Tied Up With A Pretty Little Bow

2007-07-24T18:09:52Z

My bad... It's been five days since my last update. LOL I never planned on waiting that long. I actually thought of posting several times, but nothing ever came of it. I guess that's because not much was going on. :oP Now you get a condensed review of the past few days.

Thursday was basically the same shit, just a different day. I was really feeling the need for the weekend. Things at work were just testing every last little bit of patience I had. So, after becoming increasingly annoyed, I decided to just work half a day on Friday. I figured I could use it.

So Friday started with the normal payday errands, and then I came to work four about five hours. It was a quiet day, and it went relatively quickly. There was a group here from Holland to look at the Ignite system. The one was really nice looking. All of the females in the room were drooling over him. LOL After work I went home... well, to Mom's. I ended up on the phone with Grandpa. I'll get into that more later. When I finally got off the phone with him, Mom and I went out to dinner at Logan's before coming home again. I napped. The evening wasn't real exciting. It was relaxing, though, which was much needed. I did a great deal of reading. After going home, I finished up my book around 5:00 Saturday morning before going to bed. LOL

Saturday was another quiet day. I really didn't do a whole lot. What I DID do was finally get all of my books alphabetized and put away. Now they are no longer sitting on the floor next to my bed, which is nice. It didn't take me nearly as long to accomplish that task as I thought it would. Once that was done, the rest of the evening was once more spent being a lazy slug. I think I finally went to bed around 4:00 Sunday morning, however... believe it or not... I didn't take a nap the entire day. Impressive, huh? LOL

Grocery shopping, the only shopping that I truly despise, was accomplished on Sunday after I finally rolled out of bed. That was my only accomplishment of the day, though. LOL I DID take a nap that day. I was tired, and I didn't feel the need to fight it. But yeah... it was a quiet evening, which was a good way to end the weekend. I like having quiet before getting started back at work.

Puppy is currently on some trip to some country with his parents, so he's not here this week. That's made me happy. It makes work peaceful. I don't have him sitting over my shoulder or asking stupid questions or interrupting conversations. I've missed that. I can just sit here and go about my business. There are some guys here from another station today. They're getting Ignite, so they're looking at our work flow, how we have stuff set up, all that good stuff. I'd really appreciate it if Scott would start giving me a heads up when these people are coming. I'm not sure where they are in the building right now, but they'll be back in a little bit.

In reference to my phone call with Grandpa the other day, apparently he is actually going to tell Sharon he wants a divorce. He's not just moving out. It kinda surprised Mom and me. I'm not sure if Daddy knows that one or not. Originally we just thought he was moving out into an apartment, but he is going to get a divorce. He seems more than ready for that from the way he sounded on the phone. He told me that he's going to let her keep the house and everything in it. He just wants a divorce. Plain and simple. He also said that it would be wise for her not to argue with his terms. We'll see what happens next. Sharon just had her second knee surgery. She should be back full force in about six weeks, and that is when he'll move out.

As horrible as it may sound, I'm happy that Grandpa is doing this. He's not happy. We all knew that he wouldn't be, but I guess he had to figure that out for himself. The boys are absolutely driving him crazy, as is Sharon. But I think the boys are a bigger part of it all.

I believe that ties up all the loose ends. I'm going to see about accomplishing some other things now. Later! :oP

Yeah...

2007-07-18T18:45:33Z

I know I've said this before, but really... The sound of guys sitting around spitting sunflower seeds... REALLY, REALLY annoying.

On a side note... I've noticed that I use this icon a great deal at work. LOL

Nerves Of Steel

2007-07-18T18:21:09Z

Last night my nerves literally stayed on end. Actually, it started around 3:00 yesterday afternoon, and it didn't get any better. I was anxious the whole time, nearing panic attacks a few times. It's been awhile since my nerves became that unbalanced. It made for a really long evening and an even longer night because I couldn't sleep for shit. I attempted to read before bed, figuring I could get my mind on something else, but I was even struggling to read. My mind kept drifting back to other things that would unnerve me.

Today has been a little bit better. I'm not quite as edgy as I was yesterday. So far the day has actually been relatively quiet. I'm getting odds and ends accomplished. Right now I'm ahead of the game on pretty much everything. I like it when that happens. Of course, that leaves me sitting here thinking about things I could be accomplishing at home if I weren't here. I know, I know... I need to breathe.

I've actually accomplished some writing, which has been nice. For awhile my muse seemed to be rock climbing in the foothills of Africa, but he's returned now. After posting the one chapter Monday night, I got started on a new chapter yesterday. It's pretty close to getting finished, and the awesome thing about that? I only have two parts left to this story before it's finished. Originally it was only going to be ten parts. It looks as though it's going to be along the lines of sixteen. Things got stretched out a little more than I originally planned, but that's okay. :o)

So that's about it. Life isn't real exciting. It's only Wednesday, and I feel like it should be so much later in the week than that. The weekend just isn't coming quick enough.

It's Someone's Birthday

2007-07-17T14:39:56Z

For anyone that doesn't already know. My sister(bethestage)... *points over to her*Is older than me. To prove it... Today she turned... THIRTY-ONE!!!! *giggles*

Happy Birthday Pookie Bear!!!

Two Thumbs Up

2007-07-17T03:27:30Z

Okay ladies... How many of you notice that your eyeliner is fading halfway through your day? How about mascara? Does it end up on your face after rubbing your eyes or something? Well, check this out. I'm now using the Mary Kay Ultimate mascara and the eyeliner. They are both completely awesome! I took a nap this evening, and when I got up, my mascara wasn't all over my face, and I STILL had eyeliner on. LOL No, I was not asked to post this, but I thought it was completely awesome. :o) Also, the lip gloss... Fabulous! I put it on this morning over my lipstick, and I didn't have to reapply at all at work. That is even with drinking and everything. These things make me happy. :o)

Now, if you ARE curious about the stuff I'm talking about, go talk to my sissy (bethestage). She's my Mary Kay pimp. LMAO

Almost There

2007-07-16T17:31:21Z

Yesterday I finally managed to accomplish something. Actually, I accomplished quite a bit. My office is finally put together, including the bed made and curtains hung. I vacuumed the apartment, cleaned the kitchen, did laundry... Everything is actually together in my apartment now. Well, almost. The only thing left to do is alphabetize my books and put them away. I'm hoping to get that done this week. I also need to finish embroidering the table runner for my coffee table. Lately I just haven't been in the mood to do needlework, though. Hopefully I'll get the urge to do it soon so that I can get it finished.

By the time I went to bed last night, I was exhausted. I think I passed out as soon as my head hit the pillow. Other than waking up slightly at some point this morning, in which I didn't even look at the clock, I slept all night long. I didn't even wake up to go to the bathroom. Needless to say my eyeballs were practically floating when my alarm clock went off, but it's all good. LOL

Today is a really good hair day. I also got the rest of my Mary Kay in the mail on Friday, so today was the first day I got to use all my fun stuff, since I didn't wear make-up or do my hair all weekend. Granted, I know that I had part of my new stuff before Friday, but, I'm odd, and I wanted to wait until I had EVERYTHING. Yes, I know... I'm special. LOL We all knew that.

Work is pretty quiet so far today, which is good. I'm in a pretty decent mood. There are a thousand things I want to do and my mind isn't staying focused for any length of time, but ya know... I'll survive. Right now I think I need to find some more caffeine, though, because I have had nearly enough. :oP

Rainy Days

2007-07-15T05:42:27Z

I've officially done nothing productive all day, and it's been wonderful. Sure, there is a nice little "to do" list of things that I wanted to accomplish over the weekend, but as of right now none of it has been touched. I'm feeling a little bad about it, but I think I'll get over it.

Nothing has improved on the work front. Between 3:15 and 4:10 Friday afternoon, I was the only director in the control room. Where were the others? I'm really not sure. It's pretty bad when the 5:00 producer is calling to find out who her director is, though, because no one has marked the show or even spoken to her about it. Yeah... Scott's "talk" (if he actually had it with them) did wonders. *note sarcasm* I was still in a better mood upon leaving work than I was the week before. I came home and had dinner with Mom, followed by a nap. Later on our neighbor came over and gave us half a watermelon... YUM! It is so sweet and juicy. :o) They are sweeties. Earlier this week they brought us a bunch of fresh veggies they'd gotten.

I didn't go to bed until around 3am this morning, after getting started on a new book. Contrary to what my body was wanting to do, I was back up at 11am, or a little after, when Mom showed up at my apartment to give me some of the watermelon she'd cut up. At that point I felt as if I were drunk, I was that out of it, but I got dressed and had breakfast with Mom. It didn't take too long for me to end up back in bed. I was still tired, plus it was all dreary outside, which wasn't helping to wake me up. It was supposed to rain here today, but it never did. However, it's felt like rain and looked like rain. We're supposed to have rain tomorrow, so we'll see what happens.

But yeah... I've been quite lazy today. The most productive thing I did was take a shower. LOL Tomorrow will hopefully prove to be a little more productive. I need to do laundry, and I would like to finish up my office. Basically, that is just going to be decorating it. I also need to alphabetize my books so that I can put them in the bookcase. I'm not sure if that's going to get done tomorrow or not, but we'll see.

This is a boring post, I know. That's what happens when nothing is going on. Concept, huh? Actually there ARE things that I could write about, but they would just send me off on tangents that I really don't want to get started on, so I won't. :oP

SYTYCD

2007-07-12T04:02:39Z

I laid down a little this evening after dinner and didn't get up in time to see Lacey and Kameron's performance tonight. What I saw in the recap didn't do much to impress me, but I just saw that little bit at the end of the show, so it might've been better than I thought... I'm not sure.

Shauna and Cedric just made me cringe. I didn't enjoy that one in the least. It just pained me.

Danny and Anya... Their number was gorgeous. I do agree with the judges about there not being a connection when they were dancing separately, though. I think if they would've just been closer physically during those parts it would've solved the problem.

Pahsa and Sarah were great. Sarah is pretty much my top pick as far as girls go, which I never expected in the beginning. And Pasha... He's just enjoyable. He makes me smile. I'm still upset about Jesus leaving last time, but I think these two will do well together.

Sabre and Dominique were good. There's something about them I don't care for, but I'll admit that they did a great job tonight. Shane's number for them was great.

Hok and Jaimie's number was gorgeous. I'll agree that there wasn't much "waltz" there, but it was a beautiful number nonetheless.

Finally, Lauren and Neil... First of all, I adore Wade's choreography. I always look forward to his numbers. I still love the group number he did last year. That said, Lauren and Neil were awesome tonight. Again, I'm not a big Lauren fan, but they did a great job.

Now that all of that has been said, I'm going to close. There are a lot of things that I could talk about right now, but I'm in a pissy mood. It's probably better that I not let my fingers get carried away.

One For The Record Books

2007-07-08T04:40:36Z

Friday started off well enough. It was another early start, but I'm getting used to that. I went to the bank, paid a bill, and arrived at work in time for my first conference call of the day. It was as pointless as ever, and Scott wasn't there... I guess he figured I had it under control. I don't know. Anyway, things were going decently, and I was looking forward to the weekend. Somewhere along the way, things took a turn.

I guess it started when Mom called crying for one reason or another. Basically what it came down to is that she's not doing anything to help herself, which is in turn hurting me as well. That factor got thrown back into her face that afternoon, and she wasn't taking it well. Anyway, that call from her kinda sent my mood south, but it was only the beginning.

An hour later I'm sitting in the control room, by myself, doing work. Everyone else on the crew for that day disappeared. Producers were calling for their directors, who weren't anywhere around, mug shots were being emailed to be made, and I'm attempting to do my work, make the mug shots, and answer the phones. Finally, a little after four, the others start filtering back in, apparently deciding that they needed to do some work, even though by then I'd taken care of everything but building their shows. Would you like to know where they were? Yeah, they were outside playing pass with the football. Isn't that what everyone does when they're at work?

That information pissed me off, but I kept my mouth shut and went about my business. Granted, the sound of any of them just grated on my nerves, but I'm learning to get used to that. The next kicker came when the shows started. Instead of directing his show, James had Andrew direct it. Now, Andrew is a part-timer who was supposed to be floor directing. He does know how to direct, though. Anyway, you would think that if James isn't going to direct his show, he'll do what Andrew was supposed to be doing, right? Uh... No... Okay, so James isn't directing a show, isn't floor directing, maybe he'll run the teleprompter? If you said he would, you apparently haven't been following this story closely. I ran the teleprompter for 5:00, up until my show at 5:30. Meanwhile, James and Linda sat in the back of the room during nothing. Then, once my show started, Andrew, Linda, and James sat in the back of the room while James played around with these graphics he's making (not for work, just because). They were laughing and carrying on to the point that it was difficult for me to hear anything.

This isn't the first time for things like this, and I'll admit that I do do personal stuff at work. However, anytime I do personal things, it is after my own work is done. And if more work comes down for me while I'm doing my personal things, I stop what I'm doing and do my work. These jackasses that I work with don't do anything. They spend their time goofing off and doing what they want to do until they figure I have everything taken care of. The sensible thing would be for me to talk to my boss about all of this, but I have before and it doesn't seem to get me anywhere. It's frustrating because Scott lets them get away with everything they do. There are people in other departments commenting on the actions of my coworkers.

On my way out Friday night, I vented to Keith for a good little bit. Like I told him, I turned down a job that would've paid me at least double what I'm making because I felt like I owed it to Scott. I felt like he needed me. I guess maybe he does because someone has to do all the work, and it definitely isn't anyone else other than Annette, and she works the mornings. I'm not sure if Scott realizes what he has in me and that I'm not like the others. He knows that they will never up and leave. They will stay there until he fires them or they die. Simple as that. I have nothing holding me here, and there are plenty of stations that would hire me. GrassValley would probably still hire me. In the next month or so, I wouldn't be at all surprised if I get a call from the former general manager. He's in Birmingham, Alabama now, and that station is getting the system we're on. Before he left, he told me that if they ended up going to it he was going to call me. And, as I've mentioned, our station in Florence, South Carolina is going to the system. We all know that I love the beach... I could handle living in Myrtle Beach.

I don't know much of anything right now. I'm irritated beyond belief, and I've reached a point where I simply don't know what to do anymore as far as all these things at work. Right now I'm venting, because if I don't, I'm pretty sure my head just might explode. It still might... All I know is that I had to get the hell out of that building Friday night before I completely lost it. Scott probably would've gotten the brunt of it that evening if he had been there, but he left work before I got done with my show.

Things have just continued to get even better... and in case you can't tell, I'm being sarcastic. I found out that Mom was almost two hundred dollars overdrawn. So after paying rent, covering that, covering the bill I paid Friday morning, and paying Mom's cable bill I have a whopping twenty-five dollars to my name to last through the next two weeks. That would include needing to do grocery shopping. I'm sure you've already figured out that not much of that will be happening. It will only be the bare essentials. I guess this is something I should be used to. I'm not... I thought that I was going to have a little extra, not a lot, but some. Wrong again...